There is no tomorrow

17 Dec 2006
Posted by Kiran

How many times have you said to yourself "I will do it tomorrow"? I surely can't answer for you but I have been guilty of saying that to myself almost everyday!!

I have been, and still am, a chronic procrastinator. I guess "I will do it tomorrow" is a way to assure myself that I am not being lazy and will take it up the next day.

Inevitably however, there will be other things that come up on the next day that will take up my time. "I will do it tomorrow" is a the phrase I will then turn to again.

After seven years in the IT industry I have developed severe lower back problems. My back is just about holding up and I am acutely aware that I have been lucky till now. To ensure that nothing goes seriously wrong, Doctors have sternly advised me to start regular exercises.
I really don't need Doctors to tell me that I need to exercise. I am intelligent enough to know that myself. But yet, I say "I will start tomorrow"!!

I have tried some introspection to analyze why I procrastinate even though I know I would be better off without it. There are two main aspects to it:

1. I am, at times, just too tired and want to simply sit back and relax
2. There are times when I am being just plain lazy

And, to be brutal with myself, it is more often me being lazy and "not in the mood" than it is me being tired.

There have been multiple times when I have tried to resolve myself to stop being lazy and get things done with. But it calls for a lot more discipline than I can muster at the moment. It calls for sheer will-power. It calls for me being the boss over myself and making sure I get my behind off the sofa and get going.

I have come to realize that I am fooling myself by saying "I will do it tomorrow". Whenever I do turn to such a phrase I am, in effect, wasting my own life. That is because, there is no such tomorrow. The tomorrow that I keep seeking, when I have all the time in the world to get the menial tasks done, will never come. Everyday will bring its own surprises. Everyday will bring its own chores, its own challenges. Everyday will bring its own opportunities. If I fail to grab at those on that very day, I have lost it forever!

I am also aware that going forward expectations will rise and so will responsibilities. Taking shelter under phrases such as "I will do it tomorrow" can only lead to disappointment and failure. It is time for a change in lifestyle. It is not going to be easy, but I have to do it. I have to do it for myself.